I hope you had a good week so far. I am looking forward to the weekend. Is it just me or do the weekends seem to be over before we know it? haha!
Anyway, today we are going to talk about "Learning to Love". You're probably thinking "What???" but trust me, I'm on to something here. I was thinking the other day of what things have been a struggle for me as a Christian. One thing that stood out in my mind was learning to love others. Believe it or not, this was a struggle for me. I had become a hardened person and I would very rarely let people get very close to me, I didn't really trust anyone, and I was just kind of mean. I can't pinpoint one cause for this behavior but I can say that during my life I have been let down and had my trust broken time and time again. When I decided to re-dedicate my life to the Lord I had a lot of changes to make and this was one of the first on the list. You can't exactly be loving to people if you act that way, right?
Let's go back to one specific time in my life, the time right before my life was turned upside down... I was in a long term relationship, we planned to get married. Actually, I had put a binder together of my "perfect wedding". A ring was bought and a house was ready for us to begin our lives together. Seems perfect, right? Sure it does... from the outside. I left out the part where we would fight constantly (but would hide it from everyone), the part where we were really only together at this point because we had grown comfortable. Then next thing I knew I found out he had been cheating on me and I was crushed. There is obviously more to this story but you know what? I don't blame him. Things between us were bad and it was never meant to be (clearly). I honestly hope that he has found the happiness that he deserves because everyone deserves to be happy.
Once I was at the bottom of my self pity-pit. I decided it was time to go back to church and the rest is history. Ok, the end! Just kidding!
My point to this very long story is, I was so hardened by that experience that I was dangerously close to never opening myself up to love again. Not just love between me and a significant other but love between me and anyone. I closed myself off because I figured if I didn't let people close enough to me then I wouldn't get hurt but that's not the answer! Months went by as I was trying to figure this "Single in my mid 20's thing". During this time the only relationship I was in was with Jesus and you know what? I fell in love with Him. There isn't a doubt in my mind that I went through all of this heart ache because God wanted to love me and have me love Him in return. He wanted to show me what perfect love is and He has! Eventually, I met Mr. out of nowhere and I have grown into someone I am proud of. I have learned to love people I meet and to love myself. But most importantly, I love Jesus first.
I wanted to share this with you because there might be a point in your life when you feel like there is no way out. You feel so low and like no one can help you but God can and He will, if you let him. Just remember, He wants a relationship with you but you have to open yourself up to it and before you know if, you will Learn to Love again.
I hope that you enjoyed this post. I know it was a bit longer than they usually are but I really wanted to share this with you all today. I hope you guys have a good weekend and I will see you back on Monday with another Halloween Tutorial.
Until next time...
Xoxo,
Adela
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